Thursday, December 30, 2004

here's to one more

i lost my freaking cell phone about a week ago. have no clue where it could have gone. well, i do know, but i couldn't find it at any of those places. so i basically have no one's number now. been snowboarding twice now and might go again tomorrow with tom. we'll see. overall, been really fun. maybe a little too fun. i love this place so much, but i'm kinda ready to go home. miss some of the utah things. leaving maybe sunday. not looking forward to another semester. happy new years everyone.

Monday, December 20, 2004

wal-mart announces massive rollback on employee wages!!

Pisces: You'll be sued for slander, sexual harassment, inciting to riot, and a half-dozen other crimes when you decide to let your dancing speak for you.

how i missed the onion. so we strolled in colorado two nights ago at about 1 a.m. and made sunday a nice little time of santori time. without the santori of course. so good to be here. i'm typing this from tom's apartment in boulder at 8:30 in the morning because it is soooo windy out right now and way to loud for me to sleep. today's agenda includes as much last minute shopping that i can get in since tomorrow i'll be snowboarding with joe in breck. need to go pick out some shoes for kim with tom and get my mad discount. i can say this cuz i know that kim won't read this while we are here. she hardly reads it while we are home. still waiting for all the grades too. this will be a crappy week of checking every chance i get near a computer. that's really about it. the trees outside are all bending in ways that trees shouldn't bend. wait, today is the 20th? maybe its wednesday i'm going snowboarding. hmm. i'll have to look into that one. either way i'm crossing my fingers for a day at breckenridge with my bro, then a day at copper mountain with tom and rye next week. well, gonna watch a movie until tommy boy wakes up. miss my utah peeps. hope you guys are surviving without me. i know its tuff. i can't even do it.

Flashback FM: i rode a stupid pony when i was like 6 in cub scouts. probably 1 of 2 actual things we did the entire time i was in cub scouts. and it wasn't really a ride. more like a stupid photo op. crappy part is hell only knows where that picture is. this the only time i've ridden one of our four-legged friends and it wasn't so hard. don't see what the big deal is about riding horses. maybe i'll try it out when/if we go to aruba or when i own my thousand+ acres of land in montana in 30 years. are there horses in aruba?

Thursday, December 16, 2004

chalk up another

semester is now officially over. on the drive home, started thinking about other times in my past when semesters or school years would end. as many things, turns out that the ones that stick out aren't the greatest of times. now this could be because i generally only remember bad things (or so i've been told). but even tonight didn't really end the way i had it all pictured. kinda bummed it didn't.

always picture me using this blog as a way to write down events in my life prior to starting it. my greatest fear in life is losing the memories i have so someday i hope to be able to find the time to just start writing. so maybe i'll start right now. here's a glimpse of some of the last days of school in my life. sorry if its all the bad memories, but like i said, that's all i remember. all the others were probably just too ordinary to remember. and there's nothing worse than being ordinary, right?

i went to school in san jose at trace elementary, which was a third-fifth grade school. loved the place to death. felt so special that i was in this really smart school and in the "smart" math classes. also loved seeing this girl day in and day out. her name was emily kine (i think i'm spelling it wrong, but it sounds like i spelled it). she had long blonde hair and was reminiscent of dj from full house. i basically went all three years without really talking to her or showing interest. when the end of fifth grade came around, she signed my little "yearbook" which was basically about 6 sheets of colored paper stapled together. i still remember her little cursive writing on about the second page in, which was as far in as anyone signed from my lack of friends. so the last day is here that i'd be at that school and as i walked home alone, sure enough there she was about 100 feet away getting on her bus. i seem to remember looking over to her and smiling and her maybe waving back. or maybe that's what i wanted to happen. i probably just kept looking up and down, hoping she'd glance and think i had happened to glance in her direction as well. either way, i walked home listening to my mom's tape of garth brooks on my walkman. never saw her again and i'm sure she forgot about me right about the time she hit 7th grade.

in fresno now "graduating" middle school from el capitan. had some really interesting friends at the time. loyal and good as far as friends go, but just kinda weird. white fat kid me, mexican paul, mexican adrian, hindu or indian or something "bicky" as we called him, white trash aaron, and brian tolmachoff (sp.). this was our little group for most of middle school. i had a few other and probably closer friends, but never hung with them because they were on a different track schedule than i was. and of course there were my gangster "friends" that only liked me because i did all their homework. then there were the elite types like tommy forester, brandon lee, a-hole ralph, and mr. ryan clay. we all knew each other, but i wasn't cool enough to be more than a close acquaintance. ryan was everything i wished i was. he was actually the first person that i ever heard utter the word "weezer." he had the girl i wanted (andrea alonzo), was good looking and smart and witty and athletic and i hated it. i wanted so much to be close to him, but just never happened. the closest i ever got was when he would make fun of me. but we were cool so come graduation, he was taking off to another school. i had this image in my head for some retarded reason that during all the mingling i would go to him and shake his hand, give him a hug (didn't sound this gay when it was in my head at the time) and tell him thank you for being my friend and good luck to you. clad in my first tie i ever owned (and still own), i walked to him and basically stuttered out a goodbye. he and ralph were looking around for someone else so he did say bye, but like the two years we knew each other, he was too busy doing other things to really notice me. maybe i really didn't want to be noticed anyways. who knows.

jump to end of fall semester, freshman year. we were playing this little winter concert at the school cafeteria. one of the songs was o holy night which the first, second, and third trumpets each had solos that eventually turned into a nice little trio. the song is 12/8 time (for some reason i'm actually thinking it was written in cut-time, which i also didn't know) and of course my gay beginning band teacher the year before never taught that, so i had to give up my little solo because i didn't know how to play it. so i practiced forever and a day to get it right and learn 12/8 and 6/8 time and the day of the concert i went out on a limb and asked sly, our band director, if i could take the part now. of course he said no and i was so bummed. to top it off, my first girlfriend ever broke my pathetic little heart a short time before. so there i am playing in this concert, crying during o holy night because i was too retarded to play the part and my oblivious ex-girlfriend was tooting away on her flute. to this day i can barely sit through that song.

duncan olds was the epitome of cool. as a junior in colorado, my only goal was to be a senior, graduate early, and head back to california. so i took some senior classes my junior year which included senior english technology taught by mr. olds (before that clown mr. foley), who happened to be duncan's dad. he was my jordon catalano, except my name's not angela and i didn't want to jump his bones. he was one of the first people ever in my life that cared about me just because he was a nice guy. a truly, genuine, nice guy. popular, good looking, and as perfect as can be, and here he was looking out for me. i didn't even have to do his homework for him to care. at that time i was ditching class for the first time in my life to hang out with patti and for some reason, he was concerned and wanted to make sure i was okay. so we began talking and out of nowhere i was friends with this guy. it only lasted a semester because he was a real senior unlike me. at grad time, i ran around the arena trying to track him down. i pushed my way through his crowd of groupies and this time, unlike ryan, i got my nice goodbye. cried afterwards because i was so sad i'd never see him again (although i did a few years later). there are a certain group of guy friends in my life that have come and gone without a friendship fully blossoming like i had imagined or hoped. another crappy feeling of what if. is this all because i lacked a real father figure growing up? who knows, who cares now i guess.

cut to what feels like so many years later. semesters are never what you hope but can sometimes surprise you beyond belief. oh how much a few classes and months can change a person. lots of good, lots of bad. i'll never know if its the good or bad that has been the predominant outcome of each semester. haven't determined what i would classify today as. ask me in a few weeks when i have more time to reflect . . . goodnight all. see you in colorado.

They will detail their pain
In some standard refrain.
They will recite their sadness
Like it's some kind of contest.
Well, if it is, I think I am winning it,
All beaming with confidence
as I make my final lap.
The gold medal gleams
so hang it around my neck
cause I am deserving it:
the champion of idiots.

as she said, "We are finished!!!!"

The Big One (1997): i think the last of the michael moore movies on my list. this one was the worst of four i've seen, but it was still not a bad movie. just had less of a point to it than the priors. not much really else i can say about it. just another moore film. funny and makes you think and so on just like the others. its just not as funny and doesn't make you think as much. still worth buying though.

so school is pretty much done with. all that's left is to turn in a final tonight and i can go back to having a life of movies and sleeping for the next three weeks. i've been neglecting so many people, both friends and fam back home, because of this last month of craziness. i feel pretty bad but i hope they understand. kinda surreal that its over though. the first 3 months flew by like nobody's business, but from thanksgiving on it felt like the world had come to a standstill.

now we just wait for grades to be posted. family law i'll get an A. constitution i should get an A. drugs and crime i was smack in the middle of an A and A-, but i pretty much bombed the final, so i could get anywhere between a B+ and an A. law society is pass/fail and i better get a freaking pass. legal research should hopefully be an A. the ones i'm worried about is drugs and research. when i know, you'll know . . . maybe.

watched commentary for star wars IV and it really sucked. was hoping to get more about the story and maybe some little tidbits on things that connect the first three with the last three. ended up being mostly about crap everyone's heard about a million times over. its sad when the bruce almighty commentary was better than star wars.

i'm outta things to say already. today is my last day at work until january something. i guess i have to say that i'm pretty lucky to have a job where i can take off 3 weeks if i want. and since i got no homework i'll start watching special features for the last samurai today. but i still hate the job. xmas presents are still slowly coming along. i got a haircut that only 1 person has noticed. my hat goes off to that one person. i was thinking about shaving my goatee today, but i decided not to. not sure why. i usually get rid of it after each semester for like a week or so. i just want change but then my face looks all fat to match the rest of me. i'm just ready to go home so i can: 1. watch commentary for episode V; 2. send off letters and xmas package to my utah people; 3. eat pb to the mo freakin j; 4. fall asleep during episode V; 5. turn in final; 6. dare to ask teacher to bless this poor soul with his grace on paper; 7. sleep in tomorrow till about 1. and this time next week, i'll be livin it up.

i'd say you could call me on my cell phone, but for month number two, our minutes are over (again) because of g-ma using up our plan for the year. i keep forgetting though and have been using it here and there. so expect another $500 bill this month. you can still call me though after 9. i'm not really sure who i'm talking to right now, but you can still call if you want. time for a little cruise and a little sword wielding action biotch!

Saturday, December 11, 2004

another proud member in the long line of the "i hate ethan fanclub"

Dune (1984): way too confusing and just way too deep for a 2 hour movie. i’m sure the second one is long enough to establish everything and figure crap out. like, what is up with the giant slug squirting lightening out of his butt? are the worms really the spice? i don’t get that. i can’t imagine anyone liking this movie unless it came out when they were in middle school. it’s weird because there are so many other movies that i could see in this one like the matrix, star wars, lotr, chronicles of riddick, and a few others. but the movie sucked cuz i didn’t know what the hell was going on. don’t see. there was a ton of potential, which is why the recent version might be good. if i have time, i'll probably watch that. it is worth noting that patrick stewart looks exactly the same today as he did 20 years ago. that's the only thing i found interesting about this movie.

Soul Plane (2004): has some really funny moments, but the movie has absolutely no point. they tried to make it better by adding some stupid love story, but there is so little attention to it and the back story they added felt like they decided to do it 10 minutes before wrapping up their shoot. snoop stole the show though! and there are a ton of good songs and lots of good cameos (lil' jon shooting a music video on the plane next to the plane's casino/nudie bar). the movie is so far out there and uses so many funny references to the ghetto culture, which is all fine and dandy, but please, next time add a little story to it (such as barbershop or friday or don't be a menace to south central while drinking your juice in the hood). plus, for most of the jokes you could probably just purchase a ludacris album. see it for the laughs, but don't expect quality movie making.

Leon the Professional (1994): oh man. natalie portman is the greatest living actress. without a freaking doubt she can deliver even when she is 14 years old. the chemistry between the two was unbelievable. they did so well with so many of the taboo subjects that the film depicted. rarely do i get so involved with the characters. i could totally feel for her being so young and thinking (or knowing) she is in love. and him being a foreigner loner not knowing how to respond to such feelings. i'm not a big fan of gary oldman, so that is my only complaint. although, he actually wasn't bad. just another portman film to add to the collection. buy it.

National Treasure (2004): sadly stuff like this never really happens and our founding fathers weren't this cool. movie is full of plot holes and wins top award for most unrealistic story. its one of those movies where everything happens perfectly as it should otherwise there would be no story. for example, nick cage is working his tail off to figure out the clues, but sean beam (the baddie) just happens to figure random stuff out on his own to be right on the tail of cage. you know the type of movie. the one where guys are shooting from 10 feet away and still miss every shot but happen to hit a 2 inch metal pipe so we all get to see a spark and hear a ricochet. however, the movie is so freaking entertaining and interesting. so for all those who think i only like deep and meaningful movies, here is one that is far from the two, but i loved because of its simple, crowd-pleasing entertainment. and the more i thought about it last night, the more i think i'll end up buying it. so do the same, AFTER getting leon.

been kinda weird lately. really busy with finishing up school finals and studying, but somehow found the time to watch four movies over the past 3 days. tired as hell too since i'm working saturday morning with on only 3 hours of sleep. so basically this post will probably take me hours to actually write because i'll be drifting in and out of consciousness (that's if the freaking officer decides to stop giving tickets to every driver out there). yesterday was a weird day. i woke up at 2:30 in the afternoon which is a little excessive i think. just having cool dreams about shooting people and being chased and so forth. hard to wake up when you are part of a movie in your head. got a little hw done and watched movies. then the night came and it all went to hell. i don't think i want to go into too much detail because everyone that it involves reads this. however, i'm still pissed about people jumping to conclusions, gossiping, not coming to me about their problems with me, trying to be a middleman when they shouldn't be, and a few other things i can problem complain about. we should have just went to the freaking party. oh well.

things are going okay so far with school. family law is completely finished. i ended up getting a 97% on my 37 pager, which isn't bad. stupid me was actually kind of disappointed that it wasn't 100. i'm gonna be begging for these type of scores in law school. i'm so ungrateful. he did take off points for just 1 question which i don't think he understood what i was trying to say. i really think i could argue the 3 points, but i'm going to end up having like 104% in the class so screw it. finished his final last night. we had to create a protection order and file for a divorce using utah's court website. this would normally not be worth saying, however this final is partially what ruined the night last night because someone thought i was saying i'm filing for divorce from kim as a joke and decided to tell kim. nice huh? well, IT WAS A FREAKING EXAM AND YOU DIDN'T SEEM THAT MAD WHEN I TOLD YOU SINCE YOU WERE LAUGHING ABOUT IT RIGHT AFTERWARD!!! but guess what everyone? according to this person i'm a dick for wanting this person to stop feeling they have to tell kim and i every freaking word we tell this person. anyways, i hope today will be a better day. i've been slacking like mad in the legal research department. have this paper due monday and its a nightmare. not long, just confusing and a ton of cases to read that also don't make much sense. plus by monday gotta study for the stupid exam that night.

just saw the war of the worlds teaser and hooooly cow it looks good. i need to complain sometime if i get the chance about the neighbors upstairs. this is already too long, so i'll save it. so yeah, i'm hungry, tired, hot, bored, procrastinating, and annoyed. just another day i guess.

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

not for fakes

been a busy, snowy day here at work. accidents and seizures galore. into the home stretch now with school. here's the breakdown as far as finals go:
  • Constitution: 100 question exam, 15 page paper: next wednesday
  • Legal Research: 100 question exam, response to a motion to suppress, gay memo on what grade we deserve, portfolio of all our work throughout the semester: this monday
  • Drugs and Crime: long stupid exam: ? next tuesday or thursday maybe
  • Family Law: unknown take home exam. could be good or bad considering the last take home exam, however he said it would be cake: next thursday
and then tack on another 13 credits to my little life. as far as grades go, its still up in the air. constitution is in the bag for an A if it weren't for the stupid paper. who knows how he'll grade it, if he even reads them at all. legal research is up to the stupid motion which again, i'm not sure how it'll be graded. the drugs test could be bad. i have to ace that in order to get an A, otherwise i'll be screwed by an easy class since i jacked up on the last test. with the biggest twist of the year, family law is the only class that i'm confident i'll be getting an A in. its been the hardest class of my life and i've never done more work ever, yet an A is practcially assured. odd.

you know, i'm just not in the mood to write today, so i'm gonna end it here. i'm just hungry and cold. i am so close to just ditchin class today, but its drugs so i've gotta be there in case he tells us crap about the exam. who knows, i still might not show. actually, i got this girl in the class that i'm somewhat friends with. her and i pretty much just screw around during the entire class and make fun of everyone, so maybe i'll tell her just to take notes for me. good thinking ethan. k, i just text'd her. so hopefully i'll be able to go home and take a nap and relax longer than 20 minutes. everyone watch for your christmas cards. if you don't get one, either 1. not done with yours 2. don't have your address 3. you are getting a gift with it and i want to send it the day before i leave so i don't have confrontation with people about why i got them a gift 4. you smell, or 5. i feel dumb sending one to you for one reason or another. okay, now i'm done for reals.

Monday, December 06, 2004

i am to snowboarding, as jordan was to baseball

i have such a headache right now. actually, i've sort of had one since last friday ever since i went snowboarding. i think i gave myself a concussion, but i'm not really sure. i've got a huge bump on the back of my neck and the top left part of my brain has been throbbing. i did have a rough landing on my head on one of my many crashes that day. the inside of my right leg next to my knee hurts to move at all. and today started another pain on my left triceps. on a lighter note, i think i improved this last friday by many times over. all of a sudden, going backwards just clicked in my head and legs. now i can somewhat slalom back and forth. my only problem is that i'm starting to go really fast now, which freaks the hell out of me so i basically just crash. also, have a tough time going between toe- and heel-side and vice versa. the split second when the board is exactly straight on is a scary point for me right now. however, i was happy to see that there was some improvement over the last time.

park city is amazing. they only have a fraction of the lifts and runs open, but even from the little they had, it was so much better than brighton. i ate at a freaking restaurant that i had to take two lifts to get to called the summit house. sooooo dang good. felt really special eating there cuz i was part of all the rich baby booming business peeps up there for the day. seemed like it hadn't snowed in weeks since everything was packed down. made for a mean fall every time i crashed. but i had a blast. even made it back to orem in time for my 3 o'clock class.

my next big "to do" for the week is the paper for constitution. i really should be working on it now, but with my headache and the fact that my work just got cable tv, i'm finding it more difficult to do this paper than it would for me to win a gold metal in snowboarding. hopefully jessIE is having better luck.

was over at brian and jAx's place last night. B gave me a copy of his blackjack game to put on my comp. i'm on the $1 minimum tables and already up $60 after playing for like less than 30 minutes. i think some time in january or february, i'll take up one of my paychecks and head to vegas with kim to blow it all to test the strategy. if we don't go to aruba this year, nevada better make way.

bought my first thing of southern comfort egg nog yesterday. if i had some real southern comfort i probably could have made it last a little longer than one day. or maybe not actually. but at least my time at work here would have been a little more enjoyable.

got to turn in the family law exam last thursday. from what i heard, exams ranged from 11 pages from the law firm's fifth member, to a mighty 47 pages from the rich girls. and from the sounds of it when we were going over the questions, i'm very confident that i'll be getting above a 90% on it. that would probably make my semester cuz that would guarantee my grade in the class!

football this weekend wasn't too eventful, or shall i say, surprising. colorado looked like standley lake high school playing against the big O. not to knock on CU, but more knocking on the north div of the big 12. there are couple big named teams in the north, but if the best they got against south's numero uno is a lousy field goal then that sucks. valiant effort against them, but what can you do? looks like utah will go up against pitt. not going to be the most exciting game since pittsburgh isn't in the bcs top ten. wait, not even in the top twenty? okay then. there go the chances of utah being put the test on a national level. sadly, they won't be able to prove themselves in the fiesta to push them up as a big name team now. however, next season they will still have nowhere to go but down. with their coach heading to florida now, this last season will soon become a memorable season that most likely won't be relived. oh well, you go where the money is.

oh, and i officially own a snowboard now. my early christmas present was given to me by kim. thank to you to the lloyds for being my official sponsors. 2006 special winter olympics, here i come!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

how did i forget this? too much crap to remember

res gestae (rayz jest-tie) n. from Latin for "things done," it means all circumstances surrounding and connected with a happening. Thus, the res gestae of a crime includes the immediate area and all occurrences and statements immediately after the crime. Statements made within the res gestae of a crime or accident may be admitted in court even though they are "hearsay" on the basis that spontaneous statements in those circumstances are reliable.

they can take their red pill and shove it

undoubtedly the worst exam of my life. challenging, long, confusing, and had to be meticulously accurate and flowing. i'm trying to find a paperclip here at work that will go around 37 pages. i guess i could attempt all my might on thrusting a puny staple into it. i'll have to think about that one. next on my wonderful to do list: 15 page paper for constitution.

could be worse i guess. i could be mike right now. he's got all this crap (minus family law) and the LSAT this saturday. poor guy's life is on the line with the world's crappiest test. best of luck to him.

so i get emails from all the movie studios telling me what's coming out this week in terms of theater releases and dvds and so on. i cannot begin to tell you how fuming i was to see that they are releasing a 10 disc dvd set for the matrix movies. i realized when i bought the three dvds that they were quite lacking in the special feature department, but i had just assumed it was cuz the brothers were so weird. now i don't know what to do. i have 3 perfectly good copies of the movies, but i have to have this set. it does come with the animatrix, which is a dvd on my list, so technically i'm getting something that i wanted before they put out the set. but instead of paying $15 i'll be paying like $70. man, i was so pissed. that is the exact reason why i'm waiting to buy kill bill. i just know the second i do he'll put out an edition with more features and both flicks merged as one. so yeah, still mad.

a big thank you to jessIE for signing the roll for me tomorrow in constitution while i'm in park city. i've been thinking about this snowboarding thing lately. what if i don't ever get it? what happens if i just keep going and never figure out how to do it right? i want to go with my bro when i get to denver, but now i'm having second thoughts. he's been skiing for years and i should probably start calling him picabo. i just know that 1. i'll be totally embarrassed with my feeble attempt to snowboard around him; 2. he will get frustrated having to wait for me to get back up every time i fall; and 3. i can't think of anything clever for 3, but i'm sure there will be a 3. either way, i hope we go cuz it would be good bonding time before he heads back to nebraska. i think he has an interview to be the next nebraska head coach. poor huskers. hey, and did you hear notre dame might pick up urban meyer (Utah) as their new coach? sucks for us, good for them i'd say.

i just read that, "Meyer received a contract extension last summer that included a clause allowing him to leave Utah without penalty if he is hired as head coach at Michigan, Ohio State or Notre Dame." why would they do that for those schools? if anyone knows, give me a call and let me know at 1-866-745-5243. i set up this toll free number so its easier for you guys to call me.

well i'm checking out. got some famdamnly law to take care of.

family law exam: THE FINAL TALLY

10/10 questions answered
100/100 possible points completed = potential A
37 printed pages
17,631 words
due today

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

in 18 days, Ethan does Denver!!!

glad its not smack dab (what is a smack dab?) in the middle of the semester right now where there is an assignment due every second of the day cuz i'm feeling so lazy right now. luckily things are winding down and i've somewhat got a handle on everything. we even had our first teacher evaluation yesterday. seems a little early but okay. i can't even tell you how busy i've been lately with that stupid family law exam. i spend hours every night on it. even if it wasn't infinity below zero out, i'd still have no time to go running, haven't seen a new movie since bridget jones, and certainly haven't had time to write on here. its not even close to being over after this exam either. i've gotta start my 15 page constitution paper this weekend and basically finish it this weekend too. then i have some crappy stuff in my legal research class. then we still have finals in each class, which includes a final in this family law class. then finally the semester from hell will end. lately i've just been really looking forward to waking up in the grover's house with absolutely nothing to do. i'm gonna finally read the davinci code while in CO, i'll check online about three times a day for my grades, as i always do during the winter, and i'm gonna eat about 40 pounds worth of chipotle. the countdown began last night...18 days to go until i can theoretically be in CO.

snowboarding this friday in park city. looks like i'll be falling down the mountain by myself again. picked up some pointers from brian though, so we'll see if his mad skills are all that he says they are. speaking of, jax is cool. yes j-lloyd, e-propa has proclaimed that you are cool. HOWEVER!!! for the record, i DID NOT say that kim doesn't vacuum because she is lazy, i specifically said WE don't vacuum cuz WE are lazy. i completely remember me saying that and thinking about choosing my words carefully as i said it. so next time you come over, i'll have the vacuum out for you since you care so much. despite this, i still think you are cool.

so i got my measly paycheck from these idiots. just try and take a guess at how much i got paid today. it is so sad to see. i'm surprised they don't want me to pay them. i got freaking $275. so pathetic. now granted, i didn't even work 20 hours each week and when i do work, it is basically me doing homework, writing in the blog, or falling in and out of consciousness, but still. that will be enough for me to, um, well pretty much do nothing. lets see, basically it will all be going to christmas gifts. i can't even afford my x-mas dvds i was planning on picking up for myself from best buy.

there are so few things worth repeating in life. however, i'll try and name a few of life's little goodies that are worth doing over and over again: jesus christ superstar, heat, boondock saints, any oasis cd, any dave cd, GTA3 and Vice City, Halo, sex, most food, disneyland/world, act of flying, and sleep. these are the things that i'm always craving to have, even after just getting it. i'm sure there are a ton more and this obviously doesn't apply to you. but this blog isn't about you so get over it. make your own list.

so, christmas is here again. this is my 20-somethingth christmas now but it feels like i've had maybe 10 in my life. thought of another thing to do over the break: finally get to sopranos season 4. okay, time for me to get serious now. not with the blog, but with my day. checklist before i leave my crap paying job:
  1. fill out three more christmas cards
  2. proof read at least 2 of my essays
  3. take about a 15 minute snoozer
  4. turn the freaking heat on. i'm dying here!!

Monday, November 29, 2004


some utah holiday cheer for you bastards Posted by Hello

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

when i'm a millionaire, i wanna get fat and beat people up too

Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason (2004): first of all, renee is faaaaaaat. i can't believe what that girl will do to herself just to make a movie. and i'm not saying she is fat, i'm really just saying she is fat compared to what she usually looks like. she's just super brave cuz a lot of folks might be scared they can't cut off the weight after gaining it all. but when you have millions, you do what you like. and hugh grant is my hero. the guy is just freaking so damn good looking and i think in another life (or this one), i am really the character he is playing. the movie was very good and very funny. has all the same qualities of the first, however maybe a little too many. at times they used many of the same jokes and lines from the first so i was kinda disappointed there. also, renee is really fat in the movie. all in all it wasn't as good as the first, but still amazing as far as romantic comedies go. buy it.

well my crappy saturday was made up with probably the best 24 hours in sports' history. was able to catch the amazing second half of the Utes game where they stomped BYU. and i couldn't get enough of the fights. of course everyone saw the boxing match in michigan, but did everyone see the clemson/s. carolina fight? these guys had full gear on going up against each other!! most sports are ridiculous anyways so anything they can do to make it more interesting i'm all for it even if it means a few peeps are arrested. and what did the fans expect at the pistons/pacers game? despite popular opinion, basketball players are people too and they do have emotions. you can only push them so far and everyone has their limits to how far they can be pushed. we all deserve respect, even ballers. even shot callers for that matter. however i'm not promoting violence, just saying i can slightly see where everyone is coming from. the only people who's actions were not justified in any way was whoever threw the cup in the first place and whoever through that fastball folding chair. the cup thrower was just being a dick, the chair chucker was probably doing it for fun thinking he could get away with it. so that's that. all your downloading needs for these glorious moments in sporting history can be satisfied with kazaa.

family law sucks really bad. we got a take home exam last thursday that is due two weeks from then. i know you are saying, "hold on e-propa, that ain't so bad. you have two flippin weeks to do it." well yeah, but the problem is that even two weeks isn't enough time for this crap. i could go into detail on how it is all arranged, but i'll spare you. just know that as usual, all the questions he has given us are essay question. i basically did 10% of it sunday night and it came out being 4 pages long, typed, single spaced. so everyone recall your linear algebra class. if 4 equals 10%, you multiply 4 times 10, which means that at the rate i'm going, this exam will be 40 pages long, typed, single spaced. okay, so maybe that wasn't linear algebra, but that's still a ton of freaking pages. i'm praying it doesn't end up that long, but who knows. especially the way i am with detail and wordiness. but it pays off. here are some of the comments our teacher, a district judge of utah, has given me on past exams: "Excellent work. This was the best 'judge's ruling' I have seen on this assignment," "Very well done," "This is a great answer-better than the model, actually," "Ethan, I would adopt you as my own son if I could." i'm happy that i'm doing so good in the class, but its just too much freaking work. so guess what i'll be doing all thanksgiving break?

snowboarding scheduled for wednesday. heading to brighton, hopefully. assuming this gay state has any snow this winter. and supposedly i'll be getting to borrow the lloyd's snowboarding stuff today. well anyways, i got christmas cards to work on, idiots to deal with on the phone, and family law to force upon myself. i got time for nothing. so i'm out.

Saturday, November 20, 2004

everyone can go to hell

ok, i'm really pissed right now so i'm gonna get some of my aggression out.

i'm sitting at work because i am too nice to say no to my boss because i know there is no one else that will help her out. the good news is that she is giving me time and a half to work 2.5 hours. bad news is that the Utah/BYU game starts in 2 minutes. this is not only the biggest game of the year for both teams, but probably the biggest game ever for Utah. i've seen at least part of every game this season, but of course i have to miss the most important.

then, yesterday was a complete waste of my time because i drove all the way to park city to do my thing, and it turns out there isn't enough snow so they pushed the day back by a few weeks. nice huh? two hours of driving for nothing.

then, today jessIE and i were supposed to do our terrible family law exam stuff, but that got put off probably forever because her husband is sick and there would be no point in doing anything together since she would have to be home by 6.

then, i can't seem to have a normal convo with kim today.

then, turns out i'll be working tomorrow morning for some retard, then have to come back 6 hours later for my normal shift.

so life sucks ass right now and i just want to be in front of espn watching the only thing i care about on saturdays. but no, i'm stuck in this hell hole for two more hours. i did see Bridget Jones last night, but i'm too pissed to review it now. so you are just gonna have to wait. for now i get to sit in front of the computer and watch the score from here. sounds fun huh? I HATE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, November 18, 2004

i is the smartest man alive

trying to gather my thoughts before i start writing today and i seem to be lacking in that department. in order to puff up my post i'll try and come up with a few of my more random thoughts.

we were basically out of breakfast this morning which sucked. had no instant breakfast stuff for instant tastiness, no good cereal that i approved of, no eggs to get creative with, no yogurt or bananas or anything that would grow from the earth to actually start the day off right, and no bread to fall back on since we had nothing else. i was stuck with eating nasty oatmeal that i'm sure we've owned since we moved in. needless to say, we're gonna need to stock up on some breakfast items.

i've stopped running since i last went to denver, as what usually happens. plus its been freezing everyday so i wouldn't do too good anyways. instead i've devoted my time to reading again, which is kinda nice. i have a ton of books to tackle so i figure winter time is the best time to do so.

today is usually my hell day, but not on this particular one. yes work still sucks, but after this i'm off to costco to pick up my pics that'll be going in the x-mas cards. then we have an exam in our drugs and crime class which i'm sure i'll destroy because i'm unstoppable. however before my head gets too big, gotta remember i have family law tonight where he'll be passing out take home exams. it'll be nice to have two weeks to do it, but i'm so afraid to even see what he has planned. its gonna hurt.

i got no sleep last night. i literally, and i mean literally just laid there watching the minutes go by on the clock for 2 hours. 2 flippin hours!!! fell asleep at about 2 and woke up at like a quarter to 6 for this dumb job. i'm gonna be so tired today. gonna have to get some extra sleep tonight also because tomorrow is the big day.

i'm soooo excited for it. despite the fact i have no friends to spend my last remaining moments of my life as i'm dying alone on a mountain in utah, it will still be awesome. bad news though. was gonna borrow my friend brian's board and boots since he never goes. had it all planned out and had been asking for some time now. well they finally went to get it yesterday from his wife's parents' house, but turns out they put it in storage. so i got no board. now a $15 day will turn into a $50 day since i'm gonna have to rent now. could of been a better night.

although, brian revealed to me an original strategy (original to us at least since i'm sure its been thought of before) on winning $$ in blackjack. let me tell you how sold i am too. statistically you are guaranteed to walk away a winner. you have to be a proficient player, but it has nothing to do with helping you win more. its all about the statistics of the bet and the odds of winning. i can't divulge any of the top secret strategies here, but lets just say he and i are gonna keep doing research and hopefully some time next year we'll be hitting vegas!!

oh and by the way, in case you were wondering, as i was laying in bed last night, i was thinking about this amazing sunset i saw yesterday over the mountains. i couldn't have imagined a better moment. anyways, i was wondering, since we live in a valley, how much of the sun do we actually see, compared to that of someone living on a plain where the horizon is at 0 and 180 degrees. then i started to think how you could calculate the time the sun would be in the sky from 0 degrees, until the sun actually rises in provo, utah, where the mountains are our next door neighbor. i realized that all you would need is a 25 cent plastic protractor and a few simple equations. best part is you wouldn't have to use stupid sin, cos, tan crap either when calculating it. not only that, but by using the same method that i thought of last night, you could do things like predict the time of the sunrise/sunset for provo or for kansas-type places, if you know the distance from here to moscow, you could predict the sunrise/sunset of there if you wanted, and i could even tell you the distance between each horizon, so long as the horizons are flat, plain-like. obviously people figured this out 2,000 years prior to my discovery, but i'm okay with that. i'll let them have their glory. i haven't figured out how i could measure the distance between the earth and the sun, but i'll work on that one.

two more things then i promise i'm done. i hate all my clothes. i'm not a big fashion guy anyways, but most days i feel like i own maybe 3 shirts, 1 pair of jeans (why is it called a pair if its 1?), and a ton of brown shorts. seems like as fast as i can buy a new shirt, my old ones go out of style or shrink on me. that's that. and finally, everyone go to www.evisual.net to see jessIE and some wedding pics. she on the front page and in the gallery section under bridal and wedding. very nice shots of the perfect little couple. if nothing else you can hear some music vaguely resembling Six Feet Under music.

goodbye all. if i never post on here again, it is because no one will go with me snowboarding and i'm frozen in 10 feet of snow. au revoir!

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

7th heaven, mmmmmmmm 7th heaven

week started out kinda boring. could be because of all the drama during the weekend, that any normalness just seems refreshingly boring. the mom situation, with her moving, or not moving, or moving again escalated to its prime this weekend. don't want to get too much into it here cuz a lot of it is some pretty personal stuff, but i just feel so bad. i wish for once in her life everything could just be normal and live the day to day boring life without all the crap. i need to hurry up and get my J.D. so i can make bank and take care of her.

had lots of good things happen this weekend though. got a 154 on the practice LSAT, which would be the best score i've gotten so far. this not-so-good score could get me in such top notch school as Ohio State, University of Tennessee, University of Oklahoma, Arizona State, University of Kansas, and just about every school in Florida. so if nothing else i'd have some good football teams to look forward to. well except for florida schools of course. so 154 is okay, but i've got to do so much better.

i also got a haircut this saturday. been thinking about my hair lately and i've always hated it but i've never known what to do with it. i mean, its decent now, but maybe i should actually try something different, but what? i would have no clue what to do. i can't keep getting the same haircut forever...can i? i don't know. maybe i should grow it out again. that was a good look for me. although no one else thought so.

and i got the raddest hat known to man to complete my snowboarding ensemble!!! i can't even begin to describe it to you, so you'll just have to wait and see. i wish it would start snowing down here in the valley so i could start wearing it cuz i'm too much of a chicken to wear it out now and actually, i will probably be then too. my first trial run with it will be this friday when i'm on the slopes of park city baby!!!! of course i'll be alone cuz NO ONE WILL GO WITH ME!!!! its all your losses though. you slackers don't know what you are missing out on. i've been having this reoccurring thought in my head that, just like the first time i came off a lift, i'll sprain or break something, and will be out for the season. all this hype and wasting money on cool clothes will be in vain. how sad would that be. for those that don't know, the first time i went snowboarding and had to go off a lift, i fell (as most do) and landed on my wrist, which sprained it and made my entire hand rise up about two inches. if that wasn't enough the next guy to get off the lift fell on top of me. i've had better first times (wink wink) but i sucked it up and went back up a little later for another run. that time with little vic, we said a prayer that we wouldn't fall off and die (prolly the first in my life) and sure enough we glided right off the lift and didn't fall. good times!! so everyone say a few prayers for me that i don't die this friday.

started putting up christmas stuff the past two nights. wanted to get an early start on everything this year because once the season starts, time flies like a mofo. the house is looking mighty fine but my thumb and index finger are getting raw because i had to test about 300 thousand lights last night to try and get a strand of them working. of course after replacing and testing and replacing and testing and so forth, the stupid thing still didn't work. whatever. but happy cuz i actually did some shopping last night for gifts for utah people. wanting to get that out of the way since we'll be in denver probably the day after school is out. i still got a million things to do on my list though: finish utah people shopping, finish decorating house, buy tree that we will get to enjoy for about 2 weeks before we leave, decorate tree, buy stationary/envelopes for annual gay letter to people, buy cards for the same, start gift shopping for denver peeps, make copies of the picture we'll be sending out, and yadda yadda yadda. and we even heard our first christmas song of the year while shopping that loathed store walmart. i hate walmart like i hate celebrities. all people for that matter. holiday cheer comin your way biotches!!!

P.S. 7th heaven is the absolute worst show on tv. how could it still even be on. i'm still predicting that the series finale will be the following: it will be made known that ruthie is actually adopted (big shocker there), the twins aren't really twins but were born a year apart and are really mentally retarded (big shocker there), eric and annie will get a long needed divorce, simon will finally come out of the closet (big shocker there), lucy will end up a psycho like her mom and become addicted to every prescription pill known to man, the dozen or so children that matt has fathered through the years with various women will sue to collect child support, mary will make another appearance as a slut, wait, that has been every season, and kevin and martin and all the other little extras will just die because they are unnecessary characters and most people don't know who they are anyways. now that would be worth watching.

Saturday, November 13, 2004


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Friday, November 12, 2004

scary movies suck, snowboarding rocks

The Grudge (2004): very scary that's for sure. i don't know why i continue to torture myself by watching scary movies. and i can't just walk out cuz i don't want to waste the money. i'm sure i'll learn some day. as far as scariness goes, its like a 9, but the movie quality of it sucked. they focused too much on scaring the crap out of me and not enough on the story. its also hard not to compare it to the ring, which was by far superior. the script was completely terrible and unbelievable. reminded me of the many "great" teen scary movies of the late 90's. there was just no substance to it. good flashbacks though. and my last thought is about the ending. if you are gonna see it, don't read any further....the end sucks my butt. this whole time she is fighting this thing and trying to figure out the mystery and stay alive, all just to die at the end. imagine the family dying by the aliens in signs, or that little cracker dying at the end of sixth sense. "i see dead people, but its okay cuz now i can help them as long as i don't die. crap, here comes a dead person to kill me." the end. i'm all for unhappy endings, but only when they fit. didn't fit here. don't see it.

Saw (2004): i'm still recovering from this. it was one of the most gruesome, demented movies i've ever seen. in fact, during the movie i had already made up my mind that i wouldn't buy it because it was so demented. bad way of thinking on my part though. its like saying that because this movie had too much violence or sex or language, i'm not gonna buy it, despite it being a freaking amazing movie. that's never been my style, so i'm gonna have to say that i'll be buying this one, as should you. you are always guessing throughout the entire movie and it never got slow. i even thought i was so smart cuz i figured it all out within 20 minutes, but i should have known better. i love the movie seven and didn't think this movie would compare, but it really does. story is just like that of seven, but this movie pushes the envelope just a tad more than seven did. either way, it will freak the shit out of you and many times you'll have to look away from the screen, but it will be worth it i promise! so go buy it. see it now if you still can, then buy it when it comes out.

man, john peel just died. for all those that didn't know of him, you probably won't care that he is dead. sucks though. go google him or something and find out more about him. the man sure knew his music.

going snowboarding (hopefully) up in park city next friday. they are having some educational thing and since i work for the educational system, they are offering $15 tickets. isn't that rad? hopefully kim will be able to get work off and we can go together. looks like thanksgiving is out for denver. just don't have the money and time. plus i'm gonna be hitting the books like mad during that time. well, i say that i will, so we'll see. looks like mom isn't moving here. don't really have a thought for or against it. just hope she's happy and it all works out. chris is living with the bastard step-dad though. not his bastard step-dad, but mine. its his real dad. actually, i'll call him my bastard ex-step-dad since he's got nothing on me anymore. anyways, i'm just ready for the weekend to be here. need a break from school. week went by fast though and the end will be here before i know it. death is an interesting topic in my head these days. and i'm beginning to realize how important 2005 will be compared to every year of my life, past and to come. kinda getting scared. alright, i got nothing else to say to you. goodbye.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

top ten reasons WWI vets should support Amendment 4 and snowboard with the boys

i'm on this kick now where i like posting other people's crap on my blog. maybe that's because not much is going down in my little life right now. its just another week. getting really excited for the holidays though. i think this weekend if i have time i'll start bustin out the x-mas crap for the house. and my work's annual x-mas party is coming up but guess who is not going? its so freaking gay. if you go, you are required to bring a gift for every person that goes. who does that? they know how much money i'm making and i know that the cops don't make that much more than i. hopefully i'll be in CO by then anyways. someone gave me the idea of having a crazy guys day out snow boarding once i get to colorado with me, tom, ryan, dustin, and jeramie. sounds a little sketchy that it would ever happen, but boy would it be fun. its soooo freaking cold today, but never fear! today i busted out my new jacket and all is well. so i'm pretty much just rambling now, so i guess i'll get on with other people's material since i'm so boring.

there is usually a top ten list in my school paper, however this one i thought was really funny:
Top Ten reasons why no one shows up to UVSC sports.

10. UVSC has sports teams?
9. The mascot is the freakish love child of a demented bear and a rat.
8. Ethics and Values sucked the will to care about anything anymore right out of us.
7. Michael Moore's gone, now we can go back to not giving a damn about anything again.
6. Because our sports teams play about as well as life editor Alicia Lee does at top ten lists.
5. Friday nights are for cruising the hall-o-flags and dragging state.
4. I'd rather be a Coug.
3. No black people in the state.
2. I don't have $2... oh... it's free?
1. Our football team sucks.
its funnier i'm sure to in-state peeps, but just know that coug=cougars=byu and uvsc doesn't have a football team. next...
Now, Amendment 4

Now that we have successfully protected the sanctity of marriage with Amendment 3, it is imperative that we continue this effort by getting hard to work on Amendment 4.

This would ban divorce, criminalize adultery and pre-marital sex, prohibit those already divorced from remarrying and impose a sin tax on those who have children with more than one person.

After all, shouldn't we do everything we can to protect marriage as we've always know it?

Michael Tielborg
Park City
gotta love those park city peeps. that's why i'm gonna live there one day. i wonder if i ever mentioned the fact that with every newspaper i get, i always look through the obituaries to see if there are any WWI vets that have died. it is so extremely rare but i almost found one today. some guy born in '02, but all he did during the war was sell liberty bonds and got some award from the government. i read somewhere that thousands died everyday, but i haven't seen any here in utah. its kinda weird to think that there are still some alive today, but in ten years there will be no one alive that was in WWI. what is even weirder is that i can see peeps in the obituary from WWI, those people during WWI could see peeps in the obituary from the Civil War, and those from the Civil War could see people that, not necessarily were in the Revolutionary War, but lived during it. our little nation really isn't that old i guess. tomorrow morning i'm gonna see a movie so long as i get up in time. can't wait!

Monday, November 08, 2004

a little extreme, but maybe not

A one-party system
Congratulations, America. It looks like four more years.

Brave men are dying every day, but you don’t care. As long as you can drive your SUVs, stuff your faces with Big Macs and watch those idiotic reality shows, you’re just fine. Greenhouse gases will run rampant, the middle class will vanish and the Constitution will be trampled. We are now officially a one-party system.

But I have noticed all these so-called patriots aren’t in line at the recruiting offices signing up to help our boys fight this war in Viet-Iraq – like those zealots at UVSC shouting four more years and death to Michael Moore. What’s next, President Jeb Bush? Why don’t we just elect Barney the dog. He’s a Republican, isn’t he?

And, if you think the draft isn’t coming, better think again. And when they start up the draft you’ll see those flag-waving young Republicans change from red to blue in a heartbeat.

Troy Coates
Murray, Utah

Sunday, November 07, 2004

my poor brain needs a home

The Girl Next Door (2004): seeing it for the first time, it feels like most cheesy teen movies out there. however this one really has a lot of substance. maybe its just because the lead is so freaking hot in the movie, but who cares right? whatever works. story is heartfelt and you actually feel real emotions with everyone, not like the cheesiness of the guys walking together on the beach in american pie 2. GAY!!! the plot holes run thick in this movie, but i'm sure you can look past it. you probably won't even notice cuz its hard to take your eyes off of ms. cuthbert. this movie barely makes the mark of buying, so add to this year's christmas list!!

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly (1966): the last movie of the trilogy and boy did it deliver. never have i seen a movie that uses music to such an advantage. kinda like how kill bill did it, the music nearly makes the movie. and if there was ever a model gun draw scene, this would top the cake. you wouldn't think you could get excited over a gun draw, but then again you'd never think i'd be living in utah, so anything is possible. it is unreal and worthy of my highest praise. when you all go out and buy them, make sure to buy them all at the same time or in order. they all have to lead up to this one. eastwood deserves the world on a platter for making these movies. the truly original badass with a cigar. buy them all.

Ray (2004): a very high quality movie. technically, it is amazing with all the different film stocks and use of colors and real footage of back in the day and flashbacks. if you are really into film and want to see how to apply all that garbage you learned in your film class, then you have to see it. story wise, its really interesting. i didn't realize ray charles was a man-whore and a junky. the movie is just all about him shootin up H and banging all his backup singers. the movie also drags a ton. try to stay awake if you see it. music of course is really good and his performance is perfect. oscar quality as everyone has been saying. one of the only movies so far this year worthy of a few oscar nods, but for your average movie watcher, not worth seeing. jamie foxx's finest is still In Living Color. go buy that instead.

so i bought my jacket yesterday. its basically me getting an early christmas present, or me getting spoiled, depending on how you look at it. now all i need is a beanie. yes, i will be wearing a beanie so watch out. my first run will hopefully be during thanksgiving. we haven't decided what we'll be doing for thanksgiving. if we go back to denver, i guarantee it will cost us a fortune because i'll still wanna hit up some snow boarding while i'm there (hint hint R & T). if we stay here, i'll be doing the same thing, only in utah. so no matter what, we'll be droppin a few C notes, its all just a matter of where. of course i'd prefer colo to the rizzle, but we'll see.

took another LSAT practice test and got my highest so far, a 152. its not the best score. well, lets face it, its not even close, but its a start. and i realized yesterday that this coming year will be the busiest thus far in my little life. i will have lists a mile long of things to do starting Jan 1. today though, i narrowed my law school pick down of where i'll be applying. before the world premier, a few things i must clarify. first off, the most ideal law schools that are probably my first choices are, in no particular order, CU, DU, UofU, BYU. each school on the below list is based on location, ranking, school size, median LSAT and GPA scores they accept, and proximity to the deep south and Texas. we don't like Texas. next, the list below includes some schools that i will most likely have no shot getting in to, but i might as well try. either the money goes to law school apps or dvds for me. law school seems more of an investment. law school apps also will cost between $50 and $70, plus $10 per school from some gay online thing that will send them all my info. point is, i'm glad i have the wife to bring in the bling. also, i've broken it up into two categories: 1. LSAT of around 155 2. LSAT of around 160. if i get around 160, i will apply to those schools, as well as the schools under the 155 range. meaning, i'll be applying to a freaking ton of schools. can never be too careful i guess. lastly, this is assuming i get the LSAT scores listed below. i could totally bomb the LSAT and end up going to Idaho or Wyoming. without further a due, my future residence for, at the very least, three years of my life:

LSAT score of around 155
  • University of Colorado at Boulder - Boulder, Colorado
  • University of Denver - Denver, Colorado
  • Brigham Young University - Provo, Utah
  • University of Utah - Salt Lake City, Utah
  • University of Florida - Gainesville, Florida
  • Florida State University - Tallahassee, Florida
  • University of Miami - Coral Gables, Florida
  • University of Nevada, Las Vegas - Las Vegas, Nevada (why am i even writing the city/state out??)
  • Ohio State University - Columbus, Ohio
  • Pennsylvania State University - Carlisle, Pennsylvania
  • Seattle University - Seattle, Washington
  • Indiana University - Indianapolis, Indiana
  • Stanford University - Palo Alto, California
  • University of Virginia - Charlottesville, Virginia
  • University of Southern California - Los Angeles, California
  • Boston College - Newton, Massachusetts
  • University of California, Berkeley - Berkeley, California
LSAT score of around 160
  • all of the above
  • University of San Francisco - San Francisco, California
  • George Mason University - Arlington, Virginia
  • University of Illinois - Champaign, Illinois
  • Northeastern University - Boston, Massachusetts
  • University of Oregon - Eugene, Oregon
  • Pepperdine University - Malibu, California
  • University of Pittsburgh - Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
  • University of San Diego - San Diego, California
  • Temple University - Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
  • Wake Forest University - Winston/Salem, North Carolina
  • University of Washington - Seattle, Washington
and that's it. that's freaking enough if you ask me. now i realize there aren't a ton of really cool schools on here, but that's what i get for sucking at the LSAT and going to a crappy school. i'll just take what i can get and hope it turns out good. trust me though, there are a million schools out there that i would die to go to, i'm just not as smart i'd like to believe, or everyone else thinks for that matter. anyways, that's all next year, so as for now, i'm gonna attempt some homework here at work, even though i left my gay contacts at home. i can barely read what i'm writing now. if you find a mistake, let jessIE know. supposedly i make a million in each blog entry, but i think it just ups her self esteem cuz she sucks so bad at boggle. week 12 begins tomorrow. see ya then.

Friday, November 05, 2004

to say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels

so apparently this is my 100th post since beginning this thing. not sure what to think about that. not much has changed i guess. well, maybe things have changed. within the 100 posts, we got new neighbors upstairs who constantly come down here to tell us to turn down my music, i never listen to the radio or cds in my car anymore, the law firm seems like just a dream, or some group of junior high kids hanging out during lunch thinking we were so cool, i’m a semester closer to graduating (6 down, 5 to go), ryan and i have gone on and off again as friends about 10 times (currently on again), attempted to put some sort of focus on the law school exam, got on a snowboarding kick, although i’m not sure if i’ll actually go once this winter, found a great new friend, and we’ve owned four cars in that time. things the same: internet still shuts off once a day, same tyrannical president, i’m still fat and in need of a haircut, hate my job, love my sleep, feel 28, wish 19, and hate most people.

i doubt my blog does anything for anyone except piss most off. i’m still glad i write in it and wouldn’t take back anything i’ve ever said. it really helps my own life to get my thoughts out of my head. venting is sometimes the only thing i know how to do and i think it works. sure, i still go into my depressive self and have fits of rage that baffle me how i can be so cruel, but i think i’d be a ton worse if i didn’t write here. it’s my own Dr. Jennifer Melfi and i don’t even have to pay her (or risk falling for her).

i suppose i’ll keep writing as much as i can until something comes up and i move on onto some new fad. you all know me. doesn’t take much for me to get bored with stuff. oh well. i’d like to think that i have some huge underground cult following around the nation. i know at first i had a lot of peeps (a lot to me) that read, but i don’t think that is the case any longer. my audience has probably dwindled to roughly 3-4 cats, so i guess in the end i’m writing to myself. i used to keep a journal when i was working at Qwest and for sometime after that. i used to write a ton, kinda like this. not sure what the point is. if i were to look back on this crap later on in life, i’d probably ask “What the hell was I thinking?” it’s more embarrassing than anything. i was telling jessIE that i could publish all these as a book someday in the far, far future, but i’m sure someone will beat me to the idea. we were also talking about how this blog will seal a win for my opposing candidate if i were to ever run for office. when people read this later on, they will probably equate me to massacring millions of helpless bunnies. so i guess politics are out of the question for me. oh well. i think i’m too short anyways. this feels like i’m giving a farewell speech. funny i should say that because Sinatra just came on my computer singing it ‘His Way.’

well, kim is home. gotta go. till another day. . .

tom after long night of drinking Posted by Hello

sister after a long day of school Posted by Hello

my bro about to break his freaking neck Posted by Hello

Thursday, November 04, 2004

first time i've cried, not relating to girls/movies/alcohol

if you read anything of my blog, please read this. you can even break it up and read part today, part tomorrow if you like. i'll let you.

so i guess yesterday was just another day. however it really wasn’t. the world seemed a bit more somber than it usually is. so much time and effort and money went into Kerry’s campaign that it is really just sad. you had Springsting and company rockin the place out, you had Moore and company doing their thing, and there was Mtv with their rock the vote crap, which obviously (i would think) should appeal to the more liberal kids, and there were punk rockin tours, and an unjustified war going on that we started. seemed like he had everything going for him to get a landslide. what went wrong? i’ve read and heard some theories here and there, but they just don’t fly with me.

i must be so out of touch with the idea that GW is qualified to be a leader of the most powerful country in the history of world. it is so mind boggling that there are so many people, over 50% of the nation, that feels this way. are they out of touch? i’m just so confused about the whole thing. is the majority of the nation so simple minded and naïve that they cannot see through this man? heck, maybe i just can’t see how he is so great of a person and one of the best presidents we’ve seen in the last 50 years. i mean, he spreads freedom faster than a hooker spreads her STDs.

without trying to be racists at all, is it all the Mexicans who tend to vote republican? but wait, california went blue even with the terminator on its side. or maybe the Cubans in Florida? were they scared Kerry was gonna send them back on the boat they came from? i know that sounds harsh, but i just don’t get it. must have been all that poor white trash from the deep south. they know that if GW didn’t have a rich daddy, he would be poor white trash along with them. he gets the vote from both worlds too cuz we can’t count out the richie rich’s out there. they need their tax breaks. and big business/big government = more money for them than i can even imagine.

i guess i should also blame my own neighbors too. God forbid that two guys who love each other should be able to get some kind of civil marriage. we have to vote Bush cuz he’ll make sure that doesn’t happen with his amendment to the Constitution. well, sheep of utah, there is no way that he will be able to pull off that shit. i am excited about the next four years just so i can see him try. i do hate this state. i feel so alienated from my neighbors, my county i live in where GW got 86% of the vote, my state, where he got something like 71% (the highest percentage in the nation), my country that i live in and the church that i belong to, who happily says that they do not endorse one side or the other or one issue or another, but are perfectly happy about releasing proclamations endorsing a ban on gay marriage at a time when, what’s this, a ban on gay marriage is on the ballot this year for utah. how convenient.

i feel really bad for Kerry. he worked harder than i could ever imagine doing. not saying that Bush didn’t, however Bush already had the millions, had the force, and had the White House. Kerry started from scratch and look at what he accomplished. and do not be fooled when people say that Bush got more votes than any president ever in history. Kerry also got more votes ever if you don’t count Bush. which means??? oh yeah, Bush had more people vote against him in the history of this country. this nation is as divided as it has ever been. the partisanship will not end any time soon, despite Bush claiming he wants to bring the sides together. as i recall, he said that four years ago and has been bashed many times for making no attempt during his first term. expect this to last people.

and yes, four more years. he got it. now we look to the future. is more nation building/destroying in the cards for us? time to head over to North Korea and Iran and bomb the holy shi'ite out of them i guess. wonder if we really will though? you figure, we are pretty darn sure they are working on nukes, so they are actually a threat to us. Sadaam on the other hand barely had the tanks to run over his own people, much less blast us with them all the way from the gulf to GW’s happy little ranch. all i know is that whatever country we decide to pick on in the next four years, all you voters and supports of GW, because he is our president and we must put our faith and trust in him, will be on the front lines doing his dirty work. i want you to represent him as we kill the thousands upon thousands of innocent people just like you and i. he probably won’t do a draft, however when he calls to the American people for help and recruitment into our world police, you had better be the first in line to give your life for your president’s cause. if you support him so much, i’m sure you’ll understand that you need to lay down your life to help GW have a name in the history books and a happy retirement on his happy ranch after all is said and done. and when you have all died in battle supporting your big business country, all non-voters who had their opportunity to have their voice heard will back up the GW voters while they reload and fix their bayonets. you apparently don’t care less what happens to this country, so you must not care what happens to yourself or your comrades. for this reason, you will be forced to care for your fellow comrade, and see that by not voting, you have created the battlefield just as Gee-Dub voters have. congratulations Bush supporters. bet you didn’t know that by voting for him, you’d get a free vacation to the land of oil or the land of rice-cakes and dance games. sorry if you don’t get to choose where you go. maybe he will invade somewhere in the caribbean too. and just maybe, you will be one of the lucky 1,000 or so who won’t be coming home. don’t feel so bad, just trust him.

today is just another day and it is exactly how i predicted it would be. gays are being treated like animals, republicans rule the day, utah people are more conservative than a muslim cleric, and mary jane is still outlawed in every state (nice going Alaska). the only thing we now have to look forward to is Clinton. i pray that she runs in ’08. i don’t think i could ask for anything more. Nader on the democratic ticket would be nice too, but Hillary is where my money is.

i’m proud of all the people who decided to vote for the first time this election. i’m sad for those that wanted to, but didn’t get the chance. like most of our votes, it didn’t matter anyways. it’s obviously not over though. we still have four years to whine about the system and get changes made. our voices may be stronger than any stupid punchcard we ever fumble through (yes, utah still does punchcards). as long as we don’t forget what we stand for, i think we’ll be okay. it’s also nice to know that we are off the hook when the country goes to hell during his second term. remember, we voted for the other guy! i realize this post is really negative, but that’s what happens when you don’t give me the rights other people have, or when you send me to fight your war, or when you lose sight of our domestic policies, or when you forget who really attacked me and the rest of america, or when you run a campaign word game and dupe and confuse the voters. yes, i’m bitter, but i have all right to be. i pray i'm wrong about the next four years, but the only evidence i have is the last four years. it doesn't really work in his favor.

i’m sorry to all my peeps that i haven’t talked to since i got back. i’m not avoiding anyone, i’ve just been so busy with everything. had a lot of catching up to do on my school work and am still far behind. i miss you all and wish i was in a state where more than 34% of the voters believe gay couples are people too with rights. as soon as this week is over, i’ll try and get in touch with you all. sorry this is so long, but you know me. i also had an editorial from the paper here that i wanted to post. maybe another time i guess.

What you did made a difference, and building on itself, we will go on to make a difference another day. I promise, that time will come – the election will come when your work and your ballots will change the world, and it’s worth fighting for.

--JK

Wednesday, November 03, 2004


the boys admiring their online dating service Posted by Hello

we don't need no water... Posted by Hello

karen and pepper Posted by Hello

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

*sigh* (#2)

such the backwards country we live in. time to pack up for canadia.

you can fool some people sometimes, but you can't fool all the people all the time

well, today is it. bout freaking time too. now we all get to stand in long lines while freezing our butts off. i will be heading over there straight after work. gives me an hour and a half to get it done. then i'll be busy the rest of the day sadly. i wish i could watch the results and crap on tv but i got drugs class, lsat study time, then lsat class. i'll be home after 9 and by that time i'm sure everything will have been already decided. my predictions: no big controversy as there was 4 years ago; no recounts, GW will take FL, IA, CO, and OH; JK will take PA and WI. i think it'll be close, but bush will win it and i'll be out a few bets here and there. oh well. life will go on and more people will die.

so no more election stuff for the time being. in a far from comprehensive list of things i did on my recent denver trip, i give you:
THE FAR FROM COMPREHENSIVE LIST OF THINGS I DID ON MY RECENT DENVER TRIP!!
  • saw karen for like five minutes and her little dogg
  • saw a house burning down and got some really good video and pics
  • study time at CU
  • read a few chapters of my current michael moore book
  • ate some tastiness at thunderbird burgers
  • played (miserably attempted) homerun derby with tom and curt
  • played some cool game of capture and hog-tie the fraternity pledge
  • d&b with tom and curtis with the dance game of course
  • long chats and walks on the beach with ryan
  • hit some sweet hot spots in boulder
  • party at waaaay old fellow high school cats' house
  • acted like monkeys with lacy
  • watched tom get reamed for being his usual self
  • headed to mom's house to chill for a while
  • lunch with ma (chipotle baby! speaking of, check out their website. chipotle.com. pretty awesome.)
  • hang with bro
  • d&b with bro
  • costume shopping with bro
  • philly cheesesteak no onions with bro
  • long political discussions with bro
  • watched the wonderful unc/miami (amazing), michigan/msu, ok/ok state (sad), fsu/maryland (amazing), and about 5 seconds of the nebraska game. and once again, utah is gonna be the story of the year!
  • halloween block party in boulder that got broken up before we even arrived
  • halloween party at tom's shoe people's house
  • dick cheney dancing like hopefully there is no tomorrow for him
  • some tasty silver mine...oh wait, i didn't have any
  • and i think about six thousand other things that i can't recall right now.
so there you have it. this week is going to be terrible. i have more homework that i can even sort through my head. i will be so happy when its over with. right now, gotta read the paper. happy voting friends and family (for those that are even registered!). vote yes to kerry, no to gay marriage bans, and no to judge taylor and hugh rode cuz they suck as professors! cut us some slack you old bags.

(actually, they are very nice guys, just either too hard, confusing, unorganized, and too high of expectations)


smelly alien dog Posted by Hello

the dude Posted by Hello

vote or die Posted by Hello

Monday, November 01, 2004

i don't think he'll be voting for bush either

"Contrary to what Bush says and claims -- that we hate freedom -- let him tell us then, "Why did we not attack Sweden?"

We fought with you because we are free, and we don't put up with transgressions. We want to reclaim our nation. As you spoil our security, we will do so to you.

I wonder about you. Although we are ushering the fourth year after 9/11, Bush is still exercising confusion and misleading you and not telling you the true reason. Therefore, the motivations are still there for what happened to be repeated. (this alone calls for a new president without question)

And he moved the tyranny and suppression of freedom to his own country, and they called it the Patriot Act, under the disguise of fighting terrorism. And Bush, the father, found it good to install his children as governors and leaders.

And we never knew that the commander-in-chief of the American armed forces would leave 50,000 of his people in the two towers to face those events by themselves when they were in the most urgent need of their leader.

He was more interested in listening to the child's story about the goat rather than worry about what was happening to the towers. So, we had three times the time necessary to accomplish the events.

Your security is not in the hands of Kerry or Bush or al Qaeda. Your security is in your own hands. Any nation that does not attack us will not be attacked. "

--Bin Laden

sounds logical to me. too bad we keep attacking more nations and pissing everyone off. denver rocked! full details to come, but i had the raddest costume, pissed off probably everyone at least once, saw lots of some of the peeps i wanted, saw too little of a few others, and even made it home with 15 minutes to spare before having to start work. all in all, i'd rate my little holiday a B+. oh yeah, add university of denver (DU) to the list of law school potentials. might be easy enough to get into and very sweet campus. i'm so tired and i think there is another fire going off in the school right now. not happy. need sleep. love colorado to death, but good to be home. sick of sleeping on couches. sweet dreams my posse of hard working coast to coasters. e propa is home.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

people used to call me eldorko in high school

ashley simpson is a dope. everyone is saying how its an unspoken fact that people either lip-sync or boost their voice with a backing track. umm, last time i checked all the bands that are actually real, don't have to do that. whatever people. i get a lot of slack sometimes for the music i buy and listen to, but just think, there are people out there buying ashley simpson cds.

i've come to a revelation that as long as i can think of new and interesting titles for my blog on each post, my life will remain interesting. when the day comes when i can't think of a title, i'm in big trouble.

one more week until the election. hard to believe its already here. personally though, i just want to get it over with and crown our next king. feels like there have been 2 years worth of campaigning.

can you believe going to colorado is still up in the air? and if i go, it will be this wednesday. i still have a ton of bribing and begging to do. getting down to the wire though. i'm just ready to get my groove on again at d&b.

i hate school right now. i'm gone every night of the week with either work, school, or lsat, except for wednesday and saturday nights. sucks so bad.

so my last couple of posts i've said some things to piss off a lot off peeps i'm sure. really don't know what to say about it all. its just how i feel. i'll try to do more to clean up my act but you all know me. i'm the huslin husler e propa. you can't phase this. been slacking in the movie department. working on one now, but not sure when i'll finish it. its another gggrrreat flick. wow, i really don't have much to say today. i'm really getting excited to vote. it will be the forth time in my life i've gotten to do so. in fact, just got the best news all day. a person very close to me that i love dearly is now voting for kerry.
xxxxxxxx@msn.com says:
oh by the way -voting for kerry

Eduardo Chambers says:
oh yeah????? thats awesome. why? what made you change your mind?

xxxxxxxx@msn.com says:
interested in the insurance thing and not too happy with the iraq thing- think i was letting the cowboy and bush in the flight suit get to me
and got some great responses so far from my mass email campaign. along with the person above, i'm 3 for 3.
"I completely agree with you Ethan!"
and for the quote of the day:
you know i'm a bleeding heart liberal through and through, i ain't gots ta read that shit.

Saturday, October 23, 2004

its not easy being green

From: Ethan Chambers
To: My Boss
Date: 10/21/04 10:47AM
Subject: I'M SICK OF THIS

We need some kind of cheatsheet telling us how to do things when we run across something listed NCIC. I'm getting sick and tired of not knowing what to do or how to send hit confirmations or whatever. When it comes to wanted persons, stolen vehicles, stolen anything, or having to enter it in because it was stolen from our end, I pretty much screw up one way or another every time I have to do something. My notes that I've tried to gather are terrible and all Karl would say is to refer to the manual, which is freaking joke. That's like someone asking what the meaning of life is, and a response is to look it up in the Bible. I'm sorry I'm sounding so jerky right now, but whenever this happens, it makes me look like an idiot in front of County, our officers, BCI, and any other agency involved, which happened to be Spanish Fork today. Also makes UVSC look stupid too and I feel like quitting this job everytime I have to do it. Okay, I'm done venting now. Thank you for listening. I'm gonna go back to my wonderful job where I am priviliged to come to work and look forward to me getting bashed on by almost every employee that works in this department for my political views. And if not bashed on, they do a good job of trying to convince me of how wrong I am.

Ethan


From: Ethan Chambers
To: A4; A6; A2; Z4; A3; My Boss
Date: 10/23/04 5:16PM
Subject: My Turn

For those that care so much about my single vote that will not make any difference to anyone in this state, here is why I will vote for John Kerry. I was never at any time for the war in Iraq. I believed it to be wrong and was suspect from the start. I believe that any person who believes in this war and feels that it is justified is not qualified in my eyes to be the next president. Regardless of whether Senator Kerry has flip-flopped, or if President Bush has flip-flopped the same amount of times as the Senator, his current view is that the war was and is wrong. This is the type of attitude I believe America needs with respect on how our country is led. I do not care about tax raises 10 years ago, changing beliefs of Vietnam (were any of you aware or alive at the time to judge the decisions he made with respect to that war? were any of you in the shoes of a Vietnam soldier to understand what he is saying?), ribbons, metals, conversations you think someone had with the Senator which really are just bad chain emails, believing anything Michael Moore or Sean Hannity has to say without figuring stuff out on your own, catchy phrases that appeal to the easily convinced masses, or political science professors who believes a newly elected president will show the world that "bringing" democracy to the Middle East is too big of a task for us (however I was unaware that it was our responsibility to force democracy on the nations of the world in the first place. also, how will Kerry being elected show al-Qaida that we are weak? Kerry has never said he will back down from that fight.). What matters are the differences in current beliefs between the two candidates. This also applies to issues such as gay rights and marriage, abortion, and a number of other current topics. With respect to these, I agree with Senator Kerry and not President Bush. These are my beliefs, since you are all so concerned with them, and will not change because these beliefs have been with me for years. These issues, along with the current Supreme Court, are also the most important that the next president will face. I obviously want the president to make decisions that I agree with. President Bush is someone that I do not agree with. And I understand that most likely, no one in this police department has these same beliefs, however I respect that and realize that there is no point in trying to prove that you are wrong. With that in mind, I hope each one of you will vote on whoever and whatever you feel is right this year. In fact, I believe that Senator Kerry will not win the election this year, yet I must vote the way my morals lead me to. Feel free to have your lively discussions and questions with me if you'd like, however do not try to convert me to a president the majority did not vote for, or a political party who still believes in separate but equal when it comes to certain types of people. Its just not gonna happen.

Ethan

Friday, October 22, 2004


but my words like silent raindrops fell, and echoed, in the wells of silence Posted by Hello

the man himself Posted by Hello

hello darkness, my old friend, i've come to talk with you again

had a really bad day today. one of the worst ever. don't really feel like getting into it now. maybe another time, most likely never. just sad about some things. family law exam i didn't even finish, my job i hate, my co-workers i hate, the pressures i seem to have day in and day out, horrible headache and feeling about ready to throw up and cry at the same time, arguing to no end, and really great things with the inevitable end, close at hand. happiness at the expense of others. pleasing people at the expense of others. it doesn't make any sense. its just sad and in the end, who really wins? is the prize the girl? the friend? trust? or maybe just a laugh once in a while. must have slipped my mind that i signed up to play the game. of course none of this makes any sense except in my own aching brain. interpret what you will. probably doesn't matter anymore anyways. who am i to care? who are we to care? its just about 7% of our little lives. when was 7% ever worth anything? maybe four years ago, but that was so long ago that we already forgot about that right? i care so little right now, that i wish i just transferred schools and just went away. need a new band hall to bury myself in its shadows. of course i don't mean all of this; my head just hurts.

yesterday was amazing. like christmas in fall. michael moore was more than i could have ever asked for. it was so incredible and we felt like we were part of history in the making both in utah and our school. truly an event in my life that i will never forget. its been a long time since i was so happy. to top it off, what a game, what a series. i take back my comment about not caring about the series this year. i had just assumed the yanks would win again, so why bother. a wise person once wrote, um, well can't remember. it was on ryan's away message last night. speaking of, hi.

the week was good and probably the best this semester. i don't suppose it could have lasted a bit longer.